This is not my year.

School starts at 11am for me today, so I'm still at home while I'm typing this.

This year doesn't seems to be a good second year for me. Felt like there is a lot of mixed feeling when I'm about to go to school. Problems and stuff starts running around my mine like a burden. This uncomfortable feeling I'm having really make me dislike lots of things. Suddenly, I didn't really felt like attending school at all. Having a to go school with a slightly later time makes me feel relive for a brief moment, knowing the time will be up for me to walk out from where I am, Home.

New module, new environment even though my previous class is just next door, new teacher which worry me the most.!!

My teacher is called Mr Ang or Amos if you prefer to address him that way. He's my CA which really overall Sucks!!. He really present himself like a poly teacher which I prefer him as a fast and go pace teacher. I heard that during my absent yesterday for my therapy in the morning, he was teaching the first topic with the class.

My friend explain to me about the way he teaches and claim him like a poly lecturer, as he doesn't allow you to interrupt the class, as if you do so he will only wait till silence is there to continue the lesson, and there are lots of rules and regulation from him, which I've not yet heard , lastly what my friend told me was, no question should be ask till he finishes what he needs to say/teaches us in the topic. I believe he has a very fast pacing in teaching, due to the mini project that he throw to us yesterday. He told us the things to collect, afterwards check the components, so that all components are present in the packet given, next he explain about each components for us to better understand what they are instead of jumping right in which is correct of him, but he don't have to explain with a machine gun, firing in all sorts of direction. It's not a war SIR there is no need to rush.

One of which he told us during the first day of school is about us going to either POLY or Higher Nitec. He gave us a warning about POLY which is MATHS. From what he said was, to enter poly you will need a gpa of 3.5 and above, but 3.5 doesn't secure the place you want and may drop out easily, which I knew in the first place. But that's not the thing I'm still considering. The thing is Mr Ang said "when you enter poly you will do well in your modules due to what you have learn in ITE, but most people who enter to poly without going through the second year of higher nitec, you will suffer due to maths, as in poly they have already assume you had known the basic of engineering maths so they will proceed to advance." so manly this is the problem I'm facing. If I will to go higher Nitec, I can skip a year and proceed to the second year higher Nitec to study only the engineering maths, the basics first.

Now I'm not sure whether or not to stay or leave. My aim when I first enter ITE was to proceed to poly once I finish my Nitec. That was my aim. Now it seems like my arrow isn't going to hit the bull-eyes for this year.