Right I'll begin about Thursday now.
I receive a message the previous night, informing me that tomorrow (Thursday) would only require us to attend the 11am lesson which is P.E and therefore the morning lesson has been reschedule. That's good news, so as I won't have to daze off in school for another few hours waiting for the next lesson to begin. Phew...
After we had P.E I thought of going back home, but my one of my friend decided to visit our CCA room to relax for a while before going home. Well at one point I did hesitate as due to the fact there is nothing much to do and slacking in there seriously made a person like a lazy-bum. Argh, the feeling of being heavy (due to tired) and weak felt like a worthless person trying to pass a day without any commitment, is the worst!! Well in the end we did went to the lab/room because I thought of asking my CCA teacher some question as she gave me some task to do and I needed to handed up before due date.
After all those stuff/task is completed, I thought of going home. Then without any notice or whatever is going on (I have no clue), suddenly we started talking and there we go again with the lecturing/learning point of my life. Having your friend to start talking about smart stuff isn't really my thing! Just blabbing like it's so right make me think you are so wrong. Because you said it in the way like you had face it before which it's not true of course. You blame everything and yet you don't understand why things are working in this way. You claim that the upper heads (higher ranks e.g principle, boss, etc) tends to throw in idea and we settle the stuff like dog (shit you, PGY), you don't understand why and you never will know as you only believe what you think it's reason is set in your face! Making assumption is bad and seeing without knowing is worst enough, yet you boldly combine them together to make the worst that was ever known.
I was really frustrated and keep shooting it back in a proper way so as not to hurt someone feeling deep down. I don't wish that to happen unless you pisses me more than enough for me to get rid of you. I made my excuse to the toilet and release my frustration through my pee (HAHAHA) but it's wasn't enough for me.
Before I headed to school I told my mum and myself that I would like to try to walk back home from school as to experience the feel. Walking is interesting and fun, but I like it alone. This is how it happen. After I went to toilet my friends and I walk to the main entrance of cafe 1 area, where one of them wanted to go the the rest room (then why didn't you go when I was going too HUH??).
I told them to go home first because I wanted to walk home (AH THIS IS WHERE IT PISSED ME OFF BALDY WHERE MY F WORD IS SO GOING TO THEIR FACE!!) and they say WHY.. which I wanted to say why not!! But their faces ask me to just slap them instead. I told them I just want to walk alone. While I'm saying, we reach the overhead bridge stairs where I say okay, you guys may go home now. Then they say it's okay we follow you.. I WAS LIKE.. What!!! Don't need I want to walk alone.. .. Then they say it's weird that I'm acting this way. So along the walk I was more than ever pissed I was freaking angry and MAD.. I was so angry that I didn't want them to walk as fast as I did. If I ever had a running shoe with me I would freaking RUN away from THEM SO MUCH!!! Why can't I have my freedom when I want to be with just myself.. It's that just too much to ask for.. I didn't even request any one to join me or force them to. I just want to walk alone.. They just freaking hell has to follow.. I just abandon them when I was nearing my house saying I need to walk somewhere else ALONE. Bye.. (I just walk, waving goodbye like SUCK YOUR OWN ASS, ASS-HOLE)
I was quiet and alone while walking which was nice and peaceful, but the two person at my back just couldn't stop letting me thinking they are freaking there.. They keep asking me am I okay, I said fine. Then they ask again. Which I really want to act like I'm deaf!!. Afterwards when I reach home.. One of them text me, saying did they do anything that made them angry I was like FREAK HELL just shut up with that FREAKING WORD!!! I told him " I said there is nothing wrong. I am always like this when I am walking because I want to it to be quiet without any interference..(which they freaking hell gave me a lot)" He reply "Why didn't you tell us earlier" I was so pissed off already and with this reply, I said "I said earlier I wanted to be alone right?" then on and on and on.. GOD sorry I don't wish to say it again. Freaking pissed off.. Want to walk alone is like asking a fish to swim on land and breath like human do. FREAKING PISSED AHHHHHH.. I REALLY............
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